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Eternally Repeating. Eternally Changing

Among closer bonds have asked how I was feeling—having wrapped ODC, something to think about for those of us who stuck all the way with it the last half-decade. I’d already shared this with them after the fact, but the answer started with “that’s the good question – maybe when I’ve fully re-become human I’llContinue reading “Eternally Repeating. Eternally Changing”

What my hand still bothers for

I’ve relatively come more to terms with my corroded ability to articulate my thoughts coherently so that comparatively-well-adjusted peoples would wanna keep up / stick around. Though that’s only seemed to further maintain this thing’s refusal to not come to light. Maybe when this thing is out in its totality and has optimally short-circuited allContinue reading “What my hand still bothers for”

Megamovie Reload Overture

Consider Yourself Golden‘s magic — ig | fb Anecdotal foreplay—of the 23 problems my eyes face, the consistent seesaw-standout is either more uveitis [imagine vision-clouding abstract art] paired with less glaucoma [imagine eyeballs ever-swelling, mm] or the reverse. Lately it’d been glaucoma to which I had borrowed time til my one remaining good eye explodes;Continue reading “Megamovie Reload Overture”

Wasteland broadcast discovery

“Diabolical forces are formidable. These forces are eternal, and they exist today. The fairy tale is true. The devil exists. God exists. And for us, as people, our very destiny hinges upon which one we elect to follow.” – Ed Warren Complete digression aside, is this waste-of-space mofo not the fugliest thing anyone’s ever seenContinue reading “Wasteland broadcast discovery”

Days to desolation

This time I felt the necessity—not the urgency—to jot this down. I’m not so air-headed to not realize that the novelty people had found in this glorified live journal [this paragraph is a joyous foreword tange-rant] was largely aided by the fact that people straight up had 90% less activity options a year ago, andContinue reading “Days to desolation”

OPEN DOOM CRESCENDO – Dissertation

SYNOPSIS: The collective consciousness of human pain has led to an unknown alternate reality wasteland. Amidst this seemingly endless exterior desolation of dirt and urban abandonment appear those searching for their answers and somewhere beyond—the entity Embodiment of Angst. It is believed that this mysterious being—whether it be in the form of a person, bagel,Continue reading “OPEN DOOM CRESCENDO – Dissertation”

Loss and Find — III

Grab hold and don’t let go. While this transience passes. While the soul-switches flip on. What creative expression means. At least to me. If I attest this through the people and things that move me most—I can maintain why I need to actuate what I may myself give. While I have time in this spaceContinue reading “Loss and Find — III”