Category Archives: IV. We dare you not to feel

Defending Outsider Art

At this year’s Fantasia International Film Festival, I took part as the supervillain on a directors’ panel ostensibly titled “Art Lives! Canadian Outsider Cinema vs. the Machine” – essentially about no-budget alternative filmmaking. This is a non-redacted manuscript of everything I was ready to say, of which I only got through about a third becauseContinue reading “Defending Outsider Art”

Soon enough the beginning

I miss my stray cat Gigi. He’s been gone for two months now (four at the time of publication)—disappeared, the last previous record six days. The hard part of mourning him is gauging how much I should mourn him given there’s no confirmation of death or how he’s doing. Cats don’t send postcards or callContinue reading “Soon enough the beginning”

No matter what

I spent the midday afternoon at a friend’s art studio, the workshop building situated in the closed-off but simultaneously sprawling landscape of a working industrial neighborhood. The sun blazed in through the studio’s wall-spanning windows, melancholically making its way across the room, never not shining as the windows faced west and the horizon was openContinue reading “No matter what”

True Love Will Find You In The End

“Never find happiness. . . It kills your creativity.” — former co-worker who found happiness I was gonna write about how I fell in and am in love—sincerely and reciprocatingly—for the first and only time in my life. I was alive way past long enough and knew myself way past long enough to know thatContinue reading “True Love Will Find You In The End”

The Vow Remains The Same

But all the hate in the world… It’s like you can’t not hate back. And I don’t want it. It’s exhausting. A reflection of my dread at the darkness this world has plunged and shall re-plunge itself under. I wanted a better world. I thought I wasn’t gonna be a part of it cause IContinue reading “The Vow Remains The Same”

Best of 2023: Spectacle Theater encore

I’m about to find out what happens next in this life. I leave New York City with a clarity deeper than I’ve felt before. To a majority of actual NYC citizens, it’s all the same. But I’m returning to my all-same. I feel a sense of definitiveness that I at-peace may never experience again ifContinue reading “Best of 2023: Spectacle Theater encore”

For What It’s Worth

This piece’s angst is in no way reflective of the gratitude, beauty, or joy I did get to experience throughout this last defining year. This blog has always served first and foremost as a self-serving canvas for the bad feelings that people should not be subjected to other than the comfort of their own privateContinue reading “For What It’s Worth”

Therapy Dogs – dir. Ethan Eng

This is a review of both THERAPY DOGS and its definitively-necessary epilogue REUNION—sleekly included on the blu-ray release. Relentless spoilers. Get the blu-ray here or evil-if-you-have-to-amazon It had always seemed like some appropriate sign that Ethan didn’t need me publicly rooting for him when stupid-ass letterboxd kept not displaying my review for Therapy Dogs, the greatestContinue reading “Therapy Dogs – dir. Ethan Eng”

“Love will reign once again, I promise.”

The End of Open Doom Crescendo Emoness writes itself naturally. Let’s get into it. Looped beyond reason to Sputnik’s “Agatka (Agatha! You’re Being Melodramatic!)” Mike Wood was one of the people I met at last December’s Paradise premiere who moved me the most that night. He came on a spontaneous whim to what I wasContinue reading ““Love will reign once again, I promise.””